my friend, the tree.
I'm feeling good at the moment. back on track. truth is, admitting you have a problem is half the solution. it really helped me getting it out there, not just on the blog, but also to my friends and people at work. I am not as misunderstood/crazy/sensitive as I thought I am!
WRITE IT DOWN.
I'm all about to-do-lists. my brain is a total mess, so at work I write lists constantly. this stops me from worrying about them all the time (even after work or at night..), as they're written down somewhere anyway! same thing I did with my long-term-goals now.. for example, the countries I want to visit next, or that I want to become a teacher when I'm old and wise!
all these notes are now bold and bright on the wall at the end of my bed, the last thing visible before I go to bed and the first thing I see when I wake up. what I added to those now are my positive qualities as a person.
clothes, looks, paycheck - these things don't define you as a person or your "value". for those assets you might get taken advantage of, but nobody will truly be your friend just because you have a supermodel-body or a rich family. I really had to put things into perspective and force myself to see what I, as a person, am worth.
don't focus on why people might not like me, rather: what do the important people in my life value about me? it's not just OK to by myself, it is essential, vital, life-saving and -changing to be the pure, honest and crazy ME I've always hid on the inside.
FINDING YOUR PLACE.
we are all part of this life - this crazy rollercoaster ride with all ups and downs, and we need eachother. every person plays an important part in another one's life, whether big or small, good or bad. being an individual, we have to embrace our individuality!
I'm lucky enough to call some brilliant characters my friends - if they wouldn't exist, you'd have to make them up! if I can love that gang for unapologetically being themselves, I can be as well.