maybe it's stress from work, it is a busy time after all - but the feeling crept up during my holiday back in june/july already, almost at the same time as the previous one. sleeplessness and stomache pain are the next symptoms that follow.
a friend of mine told me about "pain memory". she referred to the use of pain killers, but I think it affects depressive periods as well. it was like a déja vu and I was terrified to hit the same rock bottom once again, this time without professional help.
but I've applied what I learned:
take a step back.
look at the big picture.
pick apart the mess & figure out:
what exactly am I feeling, and
what makes me feel that way?
can I change it - or can I change my perspective on it?
don't be too hard on myself.
take the time.
if it seems the weight of the world is on my shoulders, but I don't know who to talk to or about what, I simply write it down. I much prefer to talk after I've figured out what's bothering me.
sooner or later, summer will come to an end, and always remember:
depression is smaller than you.
it operates within you, you do not operate within it.
it may be a dark cloud passing - but you are the sky.