Wednesday, September 28, 2016

these mountains


„these mountains that you are carrying, you were only supposed to climb.“
najwa zebian
(found via masha-sedgwick.com)


masha sedgwick shared some of her fears in a recent blog post of hers, but this quote stuck out to me and hit home, real hard.


I'm a people pleaser. I carry the weight of the world upon my shoulders. my guilty conscience is responsible for sleepless nights on the regular. I organize events for a living, so that adds to my constant worrying. murphy's law - anything that can go wrong, will go wrong. there's not only a plan b up my sleeve, I bring the entire alphabet.

my mode is always on "defence", my neck never relaxed. being the way I am, I also take responsibility for that and tried to work away the pain with yoga and muscle training. still, the tension between my shoulder blades got worse and worse.

never taking the time to book a proper massage, a friend of mine asked if I could fill in for her appointment - and I'm so thankful for it. the massage specialist realized right away that not only one but three vertebrae got displaced, causing not only the ache but also radiating to my stomach.

needless to say, the sound of straightening my spine shook me to the core. it has now been two days and I still feel rather tender all over my back. but, as usual, taking time for yourself, getting help and also spending money on it - you can only win! I never seem to learn!!

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